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Cynthia’s story

Cynthia Wachenheim was suffering from psychosis when she strapped her baby boy Keston to her chest and jumped from the eighth floor of her New York apartment.

My impression is that she likely had post-partum PSYCHOSIS, not post-partum depression, and, if I were a betting woman, I’d bet her doc missed it, and treated it with anti-depressants, which are known (by mental health experts) to make this type of psychosis WORSE. PSYCHOSIS, Elie.

Not depression, not anxiety, not sadness. PSYCHOSIS.

“This is not a crime, not an act of a selfish woman, not an act of evil,” Nowicki wrote. “it is an act of grave, grave mental illness that appears to have been woefully missed.”

Source: She had psychosis, so she strapped her 10-month-old baby to her chest and jumped.

 Know the signs and seek help early. PANDA National Helpline 1300 729 360 panda.org.au

Hayley’s story

But more often than not, the stories of women who suffer from postpartum psychosis but do not to take extreme actions like taking the lives of their children or themselves are rarely told.

“I just could not rest, I could not sleep. I just got more and more manic, the thoughts really started to pick up and they started to race. I was like ‘what is going on? I’m just too happy’.”

Hayley said she started acting very impulsively. She was waking up at 4am and cleaning the house or exercising obsessively.

“I am doing this because if I knew the signs and the symptoms, I would have been put straight in the hospital and I wouldn’t have had to go through any of that,” Hayley says.

“It’s just temporary madness.”

Source: Postpartum psychosis: Could this illness be effecting you? Read this.

 Know the signs and seek help early. PANDA National Helpline 1300 729 360 panda.org.au

Anna’s story

 Anna’s parents spotted the signs of her illness when her son was less than a week old. She was confused, believed that newspaper headlines were about her, and thought people who were tapping their feet were sending her secret messages.

Source: North Herts mum bravely speaks about the ‘psychotic episodes’ she suffered after birth of her son | Hertfordshire Mercury

 Know the signs and seek help early. PANDA National Helpline 1300 729 360 panda.org.au

Alice’s story

“She was convinced that she was communicating with her baby and the baby could communicate with her,” Barrett said. “The baby was part of her delusions and that is where the risk arose.”

Source: Antiques expert was restrained days before death, inquest told | Society | The Guardian

Know the signs and seek help early. PANDA National Helpline 1300 729 360 panda.org.au

Jessica’s story

I have heard of the baby blues, but this is something else altogether; this feels like the baby black and blues. This feels like oblivion.

People always ask me if I knew what was happening when I had postpartum psychosis. The truth is that I was painfully aware of what was happening. Until I started taking medication, and felt numbed, completely zombified, and lost two weeks of my life, I felt everything, and was utterly powerless to stop it or stem the irrepressible torment of my illness.

 The horror of what we went through cannot be denied, but I also want to share the tremendous love, growth and power that such a journey can engender.

The tremors of the psychotic quake still resonate throughout our lives three years later.

Source: Postpartum psychosis: ‘I’m a thing possessed, an animal. I am nearly sectioned twice’ | Life and style | The Guardian

 Read more of Jessica’s story on BBC Radio and her blog Mutha Courage.

Know the signs and seek help early. PANDA National Helpline 1300 729 360 panda.org.au

The Lessons from Perfectionism

So many of the pains in our world can be traced back to one simple concept – perfectionism. The idea that everything has to be ‘perfect’ to be right. In this episode, author, TedX speaker, mental mental health advocate and mama Lisa Abramson talks about her own struggles with perfectionism, and how it led her to a psychiatric hospital… and back to herself. – Happy Mama with Amy Tayor-Kabbaz.

Become so unwell, I went from normal baby blues and mood swings, some normal adjustment, trouble coping with being a new mum, lack of sleep, the hormones, the stress of trying to breastfeed… it felt like the world was ending and I as soon as I become a mum I had failed at everything I was supposed to be doing.

I wanted to know why did this happen to me? How did I make it happen? Was it my fault? What did I do wrong? This was a challenging part of the recovery getting over that and letting go, and saying sometimes there’s things bigger than us.

The combination of the hormones, the stress of being a new mum and then not sleeping just proved to be a toxic combination for me.

[If] you find yourself facing a maternal mental health disorder it’s not your fault, you absolutely  didn’t do anything wrong, there is nothing you could have done differently to prevent it, sometimes we just react differently to the situations at hand, and surrendering to that.

Say no to things that don’t align with your values and aren’t nurturing your wellbeing, getting more protective of your time.

Getting support is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of strength and self-assurance

It’s going to work out.

Source: Ep #19 – The Lessons from Perfectionism with Lisa Abramson – Happy Mama

Amy from Happy Mama donates 5% of subscriptions to her New Moon Mama Circles to PANDA! Here is recent Happy Mama article that resonated with me – Mother the Mother.

Know the signs and seek help early. PANDA National Helpline 1300 729 360 panda.org.au

 

Hannah’s story

‘I was in my own personal, living hell. But when I came out the other side I felt so misunderstood. Now, I really want to help other mums who might be going through something similar.’

‘But I didn’t know what postpartum psychosis was or even recognise my own wife, she was that bad.’

Source: Hampshire mother sectioned with postpartum psychosis | Daily Mail Online

 Know the signs and seek help early. PANDA National Helpline 1300 729 360 panda.org.au

Nina’s Story

Having had no previous mental health issues she was diagnosed with Postpartum Psychosis 8 days after Heidi’s birth and was sectioned under the mental health act. Nina agreed to be interviewed for this blog to tell her story of Postpartum Psychosis illness and recovery, and to raise awareness.

I was tired and in pain. I was feeling overwhelmed, vulnerable and wrecked. I was looking at the other new Mums they looked so happy, they had their little angels whereas I felt on edge, permanently. I was so upset but nobody asked me how I was feeling or coping.

The postnatal Midwife was less able to detect how ill I was because she didn’t know me.

I listened to music and made myself go out of the house. My memory was still poor though, I couldn’t remember what I had done the previous day so I started to take photographs.

If my mental health had been discussed more in general and if I had been told of the warning signs of postpartum psychosis in the antenatal or early postnatal period we may have been able to notice the signs earlier.

Source: Postpartum Psychosis -Nina’s Story – Birthing Mamas Blog

Know the signs and seek help early. PANDA National Helpline 1300 729 360 panda.org.au

Amanda’s Story

For my fourth episode I sat down with my friend Amanda Taylor to discuss her journey through postpartum psychosis, depression and anxiety. Amanda shares her vulnerable story with such bravery and authenticity. Her goal in sharing her story is to bring awareness to postpartum illnesses and help other moms know that they aren’t alone if they are dealing with any of these illnesses. We also talk about how you can help someone you know who might be experiencing a postpartum illness. I hope you have a better understanding of these illnesses after this episode.

Pregnant with my fourth baby…felt like another routine pregnancy, my health was great, everything was good, there no reason for anything to go off track

All seemed normal, things just got progressively with worse just mentally with me. From my perspective everything was great, I thought life as so great, I was overly joyful, everything was amazing. My husband took me to the emergency room 12 days after birth because he knew things were just not right… I left with the diagnosis of postpartum psychosis.

Dealing with all of the postpartum, I was 100% not myself

Remember thinking everything made perfect sense. It’s a bizarre state of mind, it’s not healthy, rational or real.

It was the most painful moment as the police officer escorted me and then my husband walked the opposite direction to go home and I was all by myself.

I think of hard it was but how much good was in that

I was at the lowest point in my life when I could do nothing…we can’t do any of our struggles, it may not be postpartum psychosis but whatever the struggle is, we can’t do it alone and we got to have people around us, fighting with us and for us and alongside us

Coming up on the one year anniversary and I still didn’t feel like Amanda at all, I didn’t know who I was, I didn’t feel normal…I needed more help in where I was at the time

There’s a lot of times our counsellor said this is the perfect grounds for divorce, it’s too hard for anyone to walk through so its easy to say I’m done… and my husband never took that approach, what an opportunity I get to fight for my wife and kids

Source: A Mom’s Story : Postpartum Psychosis Amanda Taylor’s Story [Ep 004]

Know the signs and seek help early. PANDA National Helpline 1300 729 360 panda.org.au

Your Loved One’s Life May Depend on You Watching This Film

When the Bough Breaks, a documentary film on postpartum depression tells some stories we ALL need to hear—and share.

When The Bough Breaks is available to stream NOW on Netflix as well as Itunes!

The reason I think we ALL need to sit down and watch this documentary is that we ALL need to be aware of the RISK factors for postpartum depression and psychosis, so that we can look for these in ourselves as we continue to grow our families, and in any loved ones who are new moms.

Ensure you watch this documentary when you are feeling mentally strong and better to watch with someone by your side.

Source: Your Loved One’s Life May Depend on You Watching This Film On Postpartum Depression

 Know the signs and seek help early. PANDA National Helpline 1300 729 360 panda.org.au

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