My life had crashed down around me and I was literally left holding the baby. I never heard of Postpartum Psychosis, let alone heard of anyone getting through the ordeal, so I was left floundering for answers why. Why had it happened to me?
As I searched the net reading stories of other women and their experiences I discovered Rebuild from Depression. It struck a cord with me as I had a idea that part of the reason as to why I developed Postpartum Psychosis was that I was deficient in some sort of nutrient or vitamin or mineral, and that giving birth had depleted what little of this something I had left thus tipping me over the edge. I was focused on Omega 3 as I already knew that I had a fatty acid deficiency with having ‘chicken’ skin since I was a teenager. I knew from my university studies that researchers were starting to investigate fish oil tablets as a treatment for depression. I read the free chapter on ‘Deficits in a World of Plenty’ from Rebuild from Depression on how deficiencies in Magnesium, Iron, Zinc, B12, B6 and folic acid are implicated in depression. This catapulted me to find more information about nutrition in our modern world.
Through blog hopping I stumbled across Changing Habits and loved the philosophy around nutrition, eating real food and making simple healthy changes in our lives. I borrowed the Changing Habits book from the library and was transfixed with the knowledge it contained and presented in simple chapter by chapter achievable changes.
I started small and simple, one change at a time to help rebuild me, to give my body what it needed to heal, all the while educating myself more on what what my body needed to heal from Postpartum Psychosis. I absorbed as much as I could through Cyndi at Changing Habits, I attended the one day Changing Habits workshop in March 2014, and with dedication listened to everyone of the Up for a Chat podcasts, following up the said books, other podcasts, and influential people that sparked inspiration in me.
Following Changing Habits and Up for a Chat, I attended the Awaken the Change Within Retreat 2014. This concept of rebuilding resonated with me during a session with James Colquhoun from Food Matters who recorded a live Up for a Chat podcast with us during the retreat. Thinking about how your body builds a child James talked about how he and his wife prepared to become pregnant, rather than to wait and see when they will fall pregnant. James talked how he and his wife sought expert advice on hormones, and began eating a more ancient diet like fermented foods, liver, bone broths, and other traditional foods which was different to how they were currently eating a cleansing, vegan/vegetarian diet. James’s philosophy was ‘What is the best way to make a baby?’. We face a lot of problems with nutrition these days, and there is no way we can not be exposed to chemicals. This is a huge challenge facing humanity, an epidemic of health. James believes that if we get preconception, gestation and the first 6 years of a child’s life right you can set up a child for a new future, not a degeneration of the species from poor nutrition. James mentioned Dr Cate‘s Deep Nutrition book where she studied facial shapes of women who have births too close together don’t allow body to regenerate between birth so amount of nutrients available to subsequent children is diminished and they show signs of degeneration of species. James believes that there are ways to eat and live to regain and pass on that legacy of being as healthy as possible to people.
I now am rebuilding my self inside and out, piece by piece, cell by cell, mouthful by mouthful and thought by thought. I am nourishing my body with the goodness it needs. I am at peace with the idea I do not have to ‘rush’ to have another baby to have the ideal age gap between my children. The more time I take to heal my body now the better the outcome will be for me and my family. Though I do not know if a better diet and lifestyle will act as a prevention to Postpartum Psychosis, I certainly feel better for eating real foods and living a slower, simpler, less stress lifestyle and that has to be good!